Friday, August 25, 2006

Burning Questions

On the first day of our nannyless week, I came home to find that Muffin had a small red mark on her hand. I knew she and the sitter had been at the park for much of the day, playing the sprinklers. I figured the sitter had missed a spot with the sunblock, or some of it had washed off. This was Muffin's only day with her, so it seemed pointless to make it an issue, and I reasoned that it could have happened in my care too.

But almost two weeks later, the mark remains. And now Muffin keeps showing it to me, and to Sally, which is making us both think that maybe it hurts. I believe it’s a burn, and a pretty bad one at that.

How would she have gotten burned? It’s possible that she climbed up on the couch and touched our lamp’s lightbulb. I know she loves to knock the lampshade, even though she knows it’s a “no.” But this is a pretty substantial burn. It is possible that the sitter let her near the stove while she was cooking? Did she give her a bath and accidentally turn on the hot water? Was she somewhere she shouldn’t have been? Dangerous possibilities are swimming around in my brain.

Injuries happen when you’re tiny and curious, and I know this will heal. But what won’t go away are the questions I’m left with:

Am I too casual about who I leave her with?

What do other working moms with no family in the area do when their regular childcare falls through?

Should I have used up the rest of my vacation to take care of her myself?

And did politeness and desire to spare a stranger’s feelings really keep me from advocating for my child and asking what the hell happened?

It’s too little, too late, but I’ve contacted the babysitting agency to see if I can get an explanation. I’m hoping there’s a good one.

UPDATE: The agency talked to both of the sitters, and neither remembers an injury to Muffin's hand. The woman from the agency thought that a burn would probably have cleared up by now anyway, and she's right -- I googled it. First degree burns clear up in 3-5 days. I don't know what that mark is, but I expect the self-flagellation to last at least 3-5 days too.

29 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

I know you are racked with a variety of feelings, the strongest probably being guilt... and that's a good thing. It means that you are doing your job as a mom by being aware of everything about muffin.

I don't think it's a big deal that you didn't question the nanny right then. You checked back in and tried to get an answer.

Bubba had a red mark on her leg when she was 8-10 weeks old. I had stayed home with her for 8 weeks and had gone back to work part time. My sister was here watching her for a couple weeks... did you get that? My SISTER was watching her.

If I am going to trust anyone, it is going to be my family. Anyway, one day I came home from work and was changing Bubba and saw this red mark on her leg. I called my sister in and asked her about it. She hadn't noticed it.

We both spent the next several days coming up with reasons it was there and why it wouldn't go away. It was a jagged j-shaped horizontal line. We surmised that a pair of socks had been too tight and left an indentation... or perhaps there was some piece of metal or something in her carseat that burned her...

But why was it still there? She had that mark for months!! The doctor didn't know what it was other than some sort of flesh wound. It wasn't a scrape, but it wasn't a burn. It wasn't a cut, what was it?

I'll never know. It took me a long time to realize I am never going to know every little detail about my daughter's life. I love her dearly and I want to be with her every waking moment.

She is now 15 months old and is into everything. She has marks here and there that I can't identify as far as where they came from, but luckily, they have all cleared up relatively quickly.

It pains me to think that I can't protect my daughter from everything all the time. But I can choose my care providers wisely and I can take little steps around my home and her environment to make her safer.

I read a quote once that I love:
"Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart walking around outside your body." - Elizabeth Stone

How true it is...

9:23 AM  
Blogger Muffin's Mom said...

Wow, you SO get where I am coming from. And that quote sums it all up perfectly.

The funny thing is, the two times she's been hurt (falling off the bed and hitting her head on the coffee table), it was under her parents' supervision. So even someone who really loves her can make a mistake.

There are going to be so many unexplained bruises and bumps to come as our girls grow up -- I better buck up. :)

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